I Feel a Lack of Spirituality

[Edward]

I don't feel terribly spiritual lately. That doesn't mean I doubt God, or disbelieve the life and teachings of Jesus Christ, or the tenets of Veridicanism, or disbelieve the spiritual gifts we all have and that I've practiced in the past. I just feel kind of numb. I don't pray all the time like I used to. I feel kind of distant from God, and yet, I know He's right there. It's a strange feeling really. I don't know how to describe it. It's like, if I should die and there's no afterlife for me, I really don't care anymore. And not caring about living forever tends to take the steam out of most religious endeavors, or so it seems to me. It's not depression; it's not a lack of faith; it really isn't. It's like a lack of caring, a lack of motivation, spiritually speaking.

Anyone else ever feel that way? 

[Jason]

Yes, I feel the same. At times everything seems grey. Until the bitter end I go on.

[Edward]

Yes, I feel the same. At times everything seems grey. Until the bitter end I go on.

Sorry, I'm just seeing this. I said I would check the forum every day and apparently, I haven't. And maybe you're right. It could just be a kind of depression I feel. I am losing weight (dieting) and that causes depression and lethargy. But that's also why I am not making any changes to the church at this time. I've thought about dissolving the corporation because the church is not engaged in making any money, but I don't have to do that, and it gives it solidity by being incorporated. The bottom line is, I am keeping everything exactly as it is until some future date. If a couple of years from now my wife (the other 50% shareholder) and myself decide we don't need to be incorporated, then we'll do something about it. But right now, with the transitions in life I'm going through (weight loss, new career), I don't think I would make good decisions for the church. So, I think it's best to just do nothing, and let it be. The way it is is not hurting anything.